Today is Wishcasting Wednesday with Jamie Ridler Studios. This week’s prompt is
What do you wish to believe in?
Wishcasting is always so difficult for me. Important. But hard.
I think that this week what I really wish to believe in, what I really want to know with my whole being, is that things are going to be OK.
The hell of it is that my entire life things have been OK. I *know* things are eventually going to be OK. What’s that saying? If it’s not OK, it’s not the end? I know that in my head. My brain gets it.
But my soul worries and can’t quite ever believe in good outcomes. I like to say that worrying is a part of my nature. I can worry about going to sleep at night if I actually let myself go there (chronic insomniac, that’s me). Whether we’re ever going to be pregnant? Yup. Worrying about it. How things are going to wind up with my job? So worrying about that. Whether we’re going to be able to do the things we want to do? Worry. Figuring out how to afford a new camera? Worried. Whether I’m going to make it to Missouri to see my grandma before she deteriorates further? Filled with anxiety.
I wish I really believed, deep down, in the security of the future. It’s always been OK. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s always been OK.
What do you wish to believe in this week?