How many of you get enough sleep? How many of you get as much sleep as you want – even if that amount is more than what is the recommended amount for you?
I’m going to come right out and say it: I don’t get enough sleep. I’m not sure that I’ve ever gotten enough sleep. I can’t remember the last time that I woke up and felt refreshed and well-rested. I’ve battled with insomnia since I can remember, and there have been times when it’s a thousand times worse than it is right now. The worst I can remember it ever being was during my first couple of years of teaching where I went through cycles of 1-2 hours of sleep a night for a couple of weeks followed by a few weeks of 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I look back at those days and wonder how I ever made it through as sleep-deprived as I was.
All of that to say that over the years I’ve picked up a few things to help me sleep, although it’s rare for me to get more than 5-6 hours of sleep each night. I try to follow the guidelines and recommendations for beating insomnia, but to be honest, the ones that I really succeed at are at keeping the bedroom for sleeping and sex. I also generally go to bed at the same time, but I fully recognize that it is way too late. The thing is – I’ve learned that it’s no good for me to attempt to go to bed before I’m literally ready to fall asleep. If I don’t catch myself at exactly the right moment, I’m screwed and it’s not going to happen. I’ll toss and turn, winding up frustrated and not associating my bed with sleeping.
For the last two weeks I’ve been having some serious difficulties getting to sleep. I’m having trouble falling asleep, and once I’m asleep, I’m waking up several times throughout the night. I’m awake for 5-10-15 minutes, and then I’m back to sleep, but when you’re only sleeping 3-4 hours, any time you’re losing at sleep is debilitating.
I know that part of what is going on is that I’ve stepped away from some of my nightly routines. At least this week I haven’t been having my sleepytime tea before bed, although that’s just been this week (I’ve been out of honey. Silly reason, but it’s enough). I also haven’t been meditating before bed, and I have no idea what that is about. The last few times I meditated, I really struggled through the process, and now, I haven’t done it for about 2 weeks now…which makes it even more difficult.
There are those factors, but I think even more than that, I’m feeling stressed right now. I’m uncertain of where my career is headed and as much as Sweet Husband is telling me to lean on his faith, as much as my word of the year is trust – I’m having a hard time believing that everything is going to work out OK. I truly believe that everything is conspiring to bring me home – we have so many things that feel like they are pointing to us belonging on the Coast. I need to relax into it and have some faith.
But in the meantime, I’m not sleeping. And that needs to change. I’m still driving too far during the early morning hours to be this tired. My work is too important to be exhausted while I’m attempting to do it.
What are your favorite tips for getting to sleep and staying asleep? What routines and rituals are working for you? Do you take any supplements that help you sleep? I’m open to just about anything at this point.