I follow a lot of blogs through the Bloglovin’ app (You can follow my blog there too! Please do! See that button over there to your right? Please click on it and follow me there). I read mostly on my phone, and in the past, my habit has been to catch up on the previous day’s posts while my coffee is brewing. I like to read those blogs before I start my morning pages, occasionally giving me something to think about while I write. Because of my new schedule and new obligations, I’ve been a bit behind. Like 50 posts behind.
So this morning I got caught up.
There are a lot of ways that I want to feel every day and through out my life, and right now, the easy answer is “inspired”. I think I could pretty easily create a definition for that, but one of my truest core desired feelings is bravery. Today I choose to define “bravery” for myself.
The dictionary defines bravery as
the quality that allows someone to do things that are dangerous or frightening : the quality or state of being brave
For me, bravery not about danger, but rather much more about the quiet moments of struggle where your personal integrity wins the battle. Bravery is about knowing what is right and doing it, even if it comes at great personal cost. It is about pushing back when you might rather be pushed down. It is about prioritizing those things that are important–critical–to your self and your sanity. It’s about standing up and being counted when it’s easier to fade into the background. It’s swallowing and getting up and showing up and doing it when you’re deathly afraid and would rather stay in the bed. It’s about speaking up when you must even though you know that what you have to say is going to be difficult for others to hear you.
Bravery. For me, it’s small but so huge and internal. It’s a thousand decisions every day that most people never know a single thing about. But I do. I don’t know that I’m always as brave as I’d like to be. But I’m working on it.
How do you want to feel? And how would you–not the dictionary–define what that feeling mes? Let me know in the comments.