Today’s prompt comes from the Cultivate 2012 Daily Prompt list. The prompts for the next several days are all about cultivating self-care.
Foodie Friday — Cultivate Style: Food nourishes us. Some foods give us more enjoyment than others. Some foods leave us feeling less than ourselves. What foods nourished your soul and body this year? What food choices can you make in 2013 to cultivate more self-care?
As a fluffy woman, I have a difficult relationship with food. I’ve always enjoyed it, and I think that food has always been comfort. In the last decade, I’ve allowed myself to use food as a comfort too much. I have eaten things that didn’t particularly taste good and I have eaten more of them than I should. I have eaten things that have tasted phenomenal and because they tasted phenomenal, I allowed myself to consume way too much of them.
In the last year, there have been plenty of times when I could have better choices, but did not. I was tired and options were easy. I was upset and the immediate was easier than a more wholesome, healthful meal. I have made fleeting efforts to be better, but they have not lasted. The best of intentions do not translate into success. A day here, one there is not the way to create change.
The things that nourish my body and soul are not the same. My soul is nourished by all the things that I don’t make enough time for. Writing. Photographing. Moving. Loving. I spend too much time focused on getting through one crisis that I don’t leave myself the opportunity to do what I need for myself. I have said several times that it felt like my soul was screaming for something, that my soul was dying.
I have writer’s notebooks that have months between entries. Photo challenges that have been left mostly undone. Projects that have been started. Magazines that are still in their mailing plastic. Books that I haven’t cracked open even though I meant to. The most my soul has received in terms of nourishment is the Documentary channel.
That is an incredibly sad and powerful statement…that the Documentary channel is the most stimulation I’ve gotten all year long. Awful.
That is not to say that my body and soul haven’t been nourished. I have incredible relationships, and those relationships have sustained me. Those relationships have been the source of some wonderful meals. I’ve talked about my marriage and a little bit about what it means to me. It is my biggest source of strength now. But I have incredible friends. People who have supported and loved me for a very, very long time, some of whom I communicate with multiple times a day. Those people and history give me nourishment in ways that food never can, and I need to remember that when there’s my true pleasure should originate.
In 2013, I have to make better choices. I’m trying to ready myself now by weighing in and keeping a food diary. I’ve been making g and taking my breakfast, but I have not been taking my lunch. These are things that need to happen. Healthy. It’s time to be healthy. Both Matt and I do. It’s time for us to get it together, particularly if we are interested in having children. More green things, more fiber, more water, less eating out, more careful planning of what we are going to eat and when, less processed and more whole foods.
…and much more reading, more writing, more photography, more walks with dogs and afternoons on beaches. Because I’m interested in all the ways to feed my body and soul.