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3. What Matters Now (Inspired by Seth Godin): Think about the here and now. What matters most to you right now? How are you going to nurture what matters in during 2013?
What matters most now is balance. There is next to none of it in my life now, and I am suffering for it. This baby family that I’m trying to nurture isn’t growing, and the goals that we want to accomplish–like getting pregnant (“baby family” can mean more than one thing, yes?)–can’t happen if I’m unable to figure out how to do something other than work and come home to vegetate.
I am taking steps during this very short month of December to get ready for making 2013 the year that things truly come into focus for me. The 30 Day Goal Setting Challenge that I’m doing, is a big part of that. I’m starting off hot and heavy, which frightens me a little, particularly given that my ultimate goal is to find balance, but after 3 days which included a weekend and some 30 hours of work, there are things happening that I feel good about.
I’ve been writing my Morning Pages (feeding the writer that has been buried in my soul since I finished my dissertation 2 years ago). I’m taking my herbs (caring for my health…which reminds me, time to get tomorrow’s dosages in the pill box). I’m taking a photo a day, even if it is waiting until the end of the day to get done. I’m monitoring my blood pressure, something I’ve needed to do for awhile but haven’t because to be honest, I didn’t want to deal with it. I’m beginning to exercise.
On the flip side of that, though, I’ve spent little to no time with my sweet husband this month. We don’t have a Christmas tree up because I’ve been at work. He’s put all of the Christmas lights up outside. While I’ve cleaned my bathroom and done some of my laundry, the rest of my house is a wreck. The flower beds in the front that I want to finish may not get done this year. I’m not entirely sure that Christmas cards will go out this year, and that makes me incredibly sad because of all of the holiday traditions? I might love writing out my Christmas cards the most. Well. Maybe driving around to look at Christmas lights is a tie. I was looking forward to sending out the first married Christmas card. Perhaps composing the first Christmas letter. Taking a cute family photo to enclose. When I look at the rest of this month, I have no earthly idea how any of that might get done.
I miss my baby family.
Things will settle in at work. We’ll find our equilibrium because my boss has a goal of balance as well. Right now it is extraordinarily difficult, though, and I’m trying to put systems in place now that will promote the sense of balance I need.