In December of 2013, I participated in Project Reverb. There are several different #reverbs that happen in the month of December, and I tended to flit between prompts from Kat McNally and those from Project Reverb. In order to keep the spirit of Reverb alive, Project Reverb sends out monthly prompts. I occasionally participate. When I remember.
The prompt for July is as follows:
Summer Time Blues | It’s mid-summer and we’ve got the summer time blues. Tell us how you’re feeling at this mid-summer check in point. Do you have the summer time blues? How do snap out of it? Or if you’re still loving summer, what’s been going great?
Oh man, do I ever have the summer time blues. *sigh* For the last couple of weeks, while I’ve tried to focus on enjoying summer…because let’s face it, when you live 6 blocks from the beach, there’s a lot about summer to enjoy…it’s been very difficult. All I’ve been able to think about is that on August 1, I’ll be headed back to a job that takes me approximately an hour and a half away from my home, husband, and furbabies during the week. Heading back to a job that while I’m grateful to have it, I don’t want.
I have tried to pull myself out of the funk by focusing on getting other projects done and enjoying the time that I have left.,
But it hasn’t worked.
This morning while I was working on my morning pages on the front porch, I kept thinking, “These leisurely mornings are over. Tomorrow I have to be at work by 7:05, and in order to get my morning routine accomplished, I’m going to need to be getting up around 4:30…which is a far cry from the 8:00 that I’ve been enjoying.”
I have tried to adjust my schedule so that it won’t be such a literal rude awakening tomorrow morning, but that hasn’t worked. I’ve still be up until 2:00. I haven’t made any real moves to get myself back in the groove.
I haven’t even thought about work except to think, “I don’t want to think about it.”
Everything is going to come crashing down tomorrow because summer is over. I suppose it’s a lovely bit of coincidence that we’ve got a weather system giving us lower than normal temperatures. The last couple of days we’ve had lows in the 60s, so when I step out onto the porch in the morning, it’s cool – almost fall-like. That same weather system is wreaking havoc with my head, and I’ve felt like hell all week. Appropriate given all the stuff going on in my head with regard to going back to work.
I’d really love to stomp my feet and say, “I don’t want to!” but I am grateful to have a job – one that pays decently in this area. So I will be grumpy in the morning as I make my way to work. And I’ll enjoy Saturday and Sunday poolside as a grumble about being back at work on the first day of August.
How is your summer going? Are you winding down? Or are you still in the thick of it? Let me know in the comments!