This whole trying to get pregnant thing has really made me mindful of and aware of my health. I’ve finally decided that taking medication for high blood pressure might not be a bad idea. I’m taking some other medication as well. We’re doing some healthy eating and some exercising.
I’m not sure if it’s just side effects of the medication or the results of just too much stress, but I’m having some issues that are bothering me.
I’m exhausted. Beyond exhausted. My muscles ache they are so tired. My legs feel like I’ve run a marathon. I’m experiencing muscle tremors as well. An increase in my seizures has also started occurring. I have a difficulty concentrating. My vision is frequently blurred. There’s been an increase in that little choking problem that I have.
I think the universe is trying to send me a message about MS. I’ve talked in the past about my concerns with regard to MS. Out of the blue, a blog I follow talked about her MS diagnosis in the context I’ve done some reading again. My unexplained itching that doesn’t respond to conventional therapies could be a symptom. All of these other things could be indications.
So tomorrow I’ll tell my gynecologist that I don’t feel well. And I imagine that he will tell me I need to see my regular doctor. So I’ll make that appointment, which may mean a referral to a neurologist.
I am no fan of doctors. I am not looking forward this process, and I am not looking forward to a possible diagnosis.
I am, in fact, quite fearful about this whole process. There comes a point, though, where I am more fearful of these feelings. There is something wrong with me. I don’t know what it is, and I think that I am finally at the point where I need to know.
And who knows. Perhaps this is just too much stress in my life. I know I need to get that stress under control. I’m not sure how that happens. But I know it needs to happen. More things to work on. But the doctor’s appointments first.