Yesterday marked a year that my sweet husband and I have been married.
I am not entirely sure what I expected marriage to be, what it was going to be like, so on that account, I will say that marriage has exceeded my expectations. We have had our moments. There have been a few disagreements. I cannot, though, point to one moment that has been terrible or awful or even furious. We’ve been angry with each other. We’ve been upset.
I think that part of the reason for that is that is because sweet husband loves me so much that he will do anything to keep from hurting me or seeing me upset. He’s willing to slay all of my dragons and soothe all of my wounds. He is also a peaceful, sweet man. He’s a peacemaker. He’s a man who works in the middle.
I do not make things easy for him. I am proud. I have lived on my own a long time and I have a hard time admitting when I am wrong. When I am wrong, it is difficult for me to say I am sorry. Over this last year, I’ve been learning humility and to make my apologies much more quickly. I am tempering the mean streak that is a deeply-held secret part of myself.
I have long said that he makes me a better person. He makes me want to be better and he makes me strive for the better pieces of myself. I love that about him. He is so good that I want to be good for him.
I think that we are working well together, and I think we are growing well together.
This afternoon as we were driving home, we were talking about the direction we wanted to head. We were discussing how we had stayed within our budget this weekend during our anniversary trip, which led us to a discussion of our budget in general. We make plenty of money. But our money doesn’t doesn’t make much for us. I need to look into a couple of different budgeting systems: Dave Ramsey, Quicken, You Need a Budget, Mint. See what is going to work the best for us and move forward. (If you’ve got a suggestion or a favorite please let me know in the comments!)
I really feel like we’re heading in the right direction. We know where we want to go. Our goals and the things that we want seem to be aligning. We are working well together.
As cheesy as it sounds, I’m really excited to see what is next for us. We’ve got some challenges to overcome for sure, and I’m hopeful about how we will meet those. I’ve said before that I’m an anxious person, but I’m not so anxious about our future. Perhaps because I know that I don’t have to face it alone. I’ve got sweet husband with me to help me figure it out and to guide me through it.
This first year has been amazing in so many wonderfully ordinary and important ways. Happy anniversary sweet husband!