I laid out what I wanted to accomplish for this week. I get the sneaking feeling that I might have to start going to bed earlier and getting up earlier if I plan to get all of it done.
With this little unplanned sabbatical, my body has settled into what I think is its natural rhythm. I’m awake until 2:00 or 3:00 and then I get up at 8:00, although I think really…10 might feel better. I just can’t imagine sleeping until 10 and feeling good about myself. But the staying awake until 2:00 or 3:00…that feels right. I can be a morning person when I have to, but I don’t necessarily want to be.
All of that to say that I need to be looking for some sort of sustaining work that allows me to honor what my body is most comfortable doing. I think that means something that allows me to work from home. Preferably writing.
I said last night that I really feel like my soul is being called to write. I think there are a couple of opportunities there for me, and I need to figure out how to best position myself to take advantage of that. This morning, my pages were filled with trying to make sense of how to make money from the things that make me happy. Like writing. I sent a couple of emails today so I’m hoping that yields some fruit. Even if it is just part-time fruit. Something to look forward to while I am doing whatever else it takes to keep body and soul together during this life.
In the meantime, there are other things to be working on, other ways to create. I set myself some goals for this week, and I mean to accomplish them.
- 10 job applications (2 done today, so I’m on pace)
- 200 photographs taken (didn’t take any today, so I need to get busy…which translates to getting up early to take advantage of the light)
- 5 days of exercise (cutting the grass and turning the compost bin ought to count, shouldn’t it?)
- 3 calls to the GrandSner
- Sewing. If we’re going to Hattiesburg this weekend, then I’ve got some work to get done.
- Work with my affirmations, which I intend to do as soon as I’m done here.
I’ve got to give myself structure and rhythm, and then I need to work on putting together the right music to dance to.
How do you build a life that honors your deepest desires? How do you find balance between what you want to do and what you have to do?