Today is the sixteenth day of Kat McNally’s August Moon. I have participated in her Reverb projects in December as well as her April Moon offerings, so it was a no brainer for me sign up for August Moon again this year. it comes at just the right time for me, I believe. There is a lot swirling around in my head and heart these days, and I’m looking forward to using the opportunity that August Moon gives me to work through those things that are rattling around inside of me.
Today Kat gives us the following:
Fast forward a year…
On our last day together and in the shadow of the new moon, I’d like you to write a little love note to yourself from yourself a year from now.
Where are you? What are you doing? How has the journey been? What bits of your amazing life have you claimed?
How does the path ahead look?
What does your one-year-older one-year-wiser self have to say to you where you are now?
Keep this letter somewhere safe. I’ll remind you to open it this time next year.
You have my word of honour there will be glorious surprises.
I think my New Moon wishes are the same as what my hope for a year from now is – fulfilling work that has me at home with my family. Work that makes me happy and sustains me while allowing me the freedom to serve in whatever capacity that I am called.
When I think about this time next year – approaching the Labor Day weekend – I hope that I have been at home, on the Coast, enjoying a summer filled with work – photography, writing, editing, teaching, tutoring. Enough to move me to where I want to be. I see myself settled into a routine that includes some work in the mornings that might not exactly be what I want but that allows me the freedom to pursue the work of my heart (more on that later, but there is something taking shape in my head).
I do not imagine that it will have been an easy trek to get to where I want to be. I think that it will probably be a year filled with trial and error – trying things on, seeing how they feel and either making them part of the package or electing to move on. I see lots of learning and a bit of frustration because I tend to get that way when there is something I know I want to do but for some reason I just can’t get it done or I can’t figure it out. I see me seeking out some mentors, taking a look around at who could provide me with the kind of guidance that I am in need of.
I think if at this time next year, my Sweet Husband and I get to sleep under the same roof every night, I’ll call all the work that has been done in the intervening year worth it. If I’m not exactly where I want to be, that will be OK, as long as I get to be home. The work will be the work regardless of what it is; what will make it tolerable is being able to sit down on the couch and scratch my puppies’ ears or snuggle up to SH and watch some Wheel of Fortune. I really hope that the pieces of this vision that I have for where I want my life to go begin to come to fruition, but in the end, the biggest piece is being home.
…and I’ll tell myself that it’s worth it – one little step at a time, even if it’s just a millimeter today. All I have to do is the next thing. I don’t have to do all the things. And piece by piece, I will arrive at the destination. I always was a distance runner; these linebacker thighs are good for propelling me forward over the long haul. One step at a time.
Thank you so much to Kat McNally for hosting this reflective writing challenge. These are the thoughts that I have been thinking but having a reason and an excuse to put them together has been a true blessing. I’m feeling more grounded and ready to go…now that I have a bit of an idea of where I want to head.