It’s Wednesday, which means that it’s time again for Wishcasting Wednesday with Jamie Ridler. Today’s prompt is
How Do You Wish to Be Brave?
It’s been awhile, I think, since I’ve talked about how at my core I am basically a terrified soul quaking in fear. I am fearful almost 24 hours a day, but I have mastered the art of appearing calm, cool, collected and in control. Every day is an act of bravery. I think I’ve written in the past about the roots of my fear, and to be honest it’s been a really long day, I had an intense massage, and I am drained. I have no energy to go through it all over again. Suffice to say that I think the fear is OK as long as it doesn’t keep me from living my life. As long as I don’t let it keep me from doing the things I need to do, then the fear is not debilitating.
Right now with specific regard to bravery, I need to screw up the courage to have some hard conversations. There are at least four of them that I need to have. I do not like confrontation. It’s not that I need to be liked. I don’t particularly care about that. It is the repercussions of those conversations that I worry about. My mind always goes to the worst case scenario. (Negativity goes along with that whole fear thang, ya know?) While the conversation might not wind up being terrible, but I’m going to imagine the very worst outcome. The very nature of the conversations make them so hard to have. Living in limbo, though, makes things even harder. I need the courage and the bravery to go ahead and rip the band-aid off and do it.
I have to make the time this weekend to have another incredibly difficult conversation, although this one has the potential to be extraordinarily positive. I just have to believe enough to do it. To not be frightened. Or worried about appearing foolish for having the conversation. I need to create a clearing for this conversation alone…get comfortable, be present and ask for what it is that I desire. It’s a situation where I just have to ask. But I am afraid, and I need the bravery to ask for it, to make my intentions known.
What about you? What bravery could you use this week? What courage do you need?