My anxiety the last week has been through the roof, and the effects have shown on my health. I’ve been nauseated, to the point of vomiting. My seizure activity has increased exponentially and the symptoms are worse than ever before…including some new ones that I’ve never had before. (Yes I know that I need to go to the doctor about those. I will talk to the doctor on Tuesday about some of those) But this weekend, I feel better. I’m not sure what the change is, but I feel better. I can’t promise how long that will last because I know myself and the way things work. But right now, I feel better.
This weekend has been spent caring for myself. Resting. Wandering. A little retail therapy. No working in the garden because the rain is terrible.
–Speaking of the rain, there was some awful flash flooding just a block away from us. I really hope that those people are able to drive their cars that were in water half-way up their doors, and I’m really thankful that for some reason, there was just the usual driveway flooding that we always enjoy–
Sweet Husband has been sick all weekend, and still isn’t feeling well. I’m hoping that he is feeling better and that I don’t catch it, although I woke up this morning with a terrible headache and some of the same congestion that he is feeling. I don’t particularly need that on top of the general anxiety that I am experiencing.
I’m looking forward to several things this week, among them a lessening of this anxiety because I finally feel like I’m getting a few things under control. With those things sorted out, I have room for other things that need my attention. Like my health. And spending time with family and friends.
So my goals for this week:
- Meditation. I’ve gotten good at the getting up and getting my writing done every morning, which is a great thing. I’m proud of myself for that, and Julia Cameron equates morning pages to meditation. Given the level of anxiety that I’ve been experiencing lately, I kinda think that perhaps I need more than my morning pages, so I think at least three days this week, I’d like to practice some meditation.
- Exercise. If the weather holds out, I want to get out and walk again. I’ve missed it. And again…given my anxiety levels and other general health concerns the last week, I think it might be a good idea for me to start walking again. Or stretching or something. Something to put that energy into.
- Spend time with Sweet Husband. I love him dearly, and he has been incredibly patient and understanding. I’ve been caught up in myself and my anxiety that I haven’t given our marriage the attention that I should.
I think that’s enough for me for this week. I’d add brush my teeth without vomiting, but that’s not something over which I really have any control.
How about you? What goals do you have for this week? What do you want to accomplish?