I’ve been a bit on the depressed side this week. I think it’s a combination of things, but I’ve been feeling a whole lot of defeated. There have been things going on around me that I didn’t feel comfortable with and then there was the whole idea of not knowing where to go next. Being in limbo is a terrible place to be, and it makes for a great sense of…disquiet.
A weekend with family tends to make things better. Being surrounded by people who believe in you is always a plus. As is getting a job. Even if it’s not the job you want. It’s a plus when the person interviewing you for a job that you are clearly over-qualified for is impressed by your resume and tells you repeatedly that she wishes you had been around two weeks before because they could have definitely used you in several other positions. Well. If I’d known, I would have applied.
At any rate. There were some hard conversations with myself this week and that di not make for the best of moods. My introspection and navel gazing kept me from doing a lot of the things that I had meant to accomplish. And it didn’t help that I was sick. I let myself get dehydrated which lead to a couple of days of severe nausea and lethargy as I recovered.
I feel like, though, things are getting back on track. They might not be exactly where I want them to be right this moment, but they are getting there. I’m feeling a little more hopeful about things things that I have in the more recent past. I feel like this week is the turning point. Something is coming this week, and I’ll be set off on my next course. I’ve tried to remember my affirmation:
I am totally and completely open to a wonderful new position, one that utilizes my talents and abilities and allows me to express creatively in ways that are fulfilling to me. I work with and for people whom I love and respect and who respect me, in a wonderful location, earning a good salary.
I’ve asked the Universe; it will provide.
So. As always, as I face a new week, these are my goals for the week:
- a commitment to writing. I fell short this past week, both here and in my personal journal. I couldn’t face myself in either pace so I just didn’t write. I’m going to change that this coming week.
- a commitment to photography. I took a bunch of photos of a sweet precious baby this weekend, and I am reminded of how much I enjoy taking those photos. To that end, I’m going to reach out to a photographer I know and ask her about some apprenticeship opportunities. If that’s a possibility. I want to learn more; I want to do more; I want to be better. The only ways to do that are to shoot more and to work with people who are doing what I want to do.
- Organize and clean. I’m looking at all the things I should have been doing and haven’t, and it’s starting to overwhelm me. I can see that tomorrow night I’m going to be starting to take one room an evening and getting it taken care of because this is too much. It’s not dirty; we’re not dirty people. But it’s messy and things aren’t put where they belong, which is driving me slightly batty and has to be changed.
- Health. As always, ever. Exercise and my medication the way it’s supposed to be taken.
How about you? How was your week? What did you struggle with? And what are you looking forward to in this coming week?