For a weekend that started off pretty terribly, it hasn’t ended up too badly. Sweet Husband and I have essentially been hermits this weekend. Sometimes the need to rest and not do is great. It seems like we just recently had one of those kick-back, laid-back weekends at home, but after our trip to Texas…even though we both took Monday off…and with the change in the weather, it felt right to just be at home. There were things I thought I wanted to do, but I decided that staying home was the better option. A weekend unwind, indeed. I am dreading winding up for the week.
Friday night I was supposed to go to a Halloween party with my Sweet Husband. I didn’t go. There are a lot of reasons why: I don’t like big crowds; I detest dressing up in a costume; I didn’t have a costume; I was tired; I didn’t want to police SH’s alcohol consumption. The biggest reason, though, was that my afternoon went to hell in a handbasket around 1:30.
I’ve known for a long time that where I am is not where I want to be. I’ve been trying to figure out what the next steps are going to be. As I look to define what my future is going to be, I’ve considered all sorts of options. I come back to the fact that I spent all this time getting a degree in Adult Education but more than that, the moments when I have been happiest professionally was when I was delivering professional development. I used to have connections, but I don’t anymore. However. Last week, I received an email from my school districts head of HR about an academic coaching position that was available within the district.
I spent time this week trying to find out some information, looking for which direction to take things, and coming up with the answer that now and this place wasn’t the the right opportunity for me.
However, sometimes we don’t get to choose the opportunity; the opportunity chooses us.
Or rather we are chosen for the opportunity. I had a long conversation with the head of HR on Friday, and essentially my options are take this coaching position or get moved to an even more unpleasant position. I don’t get to stay where I am. It feels like rock and hard place time. The way I figure either I take this coaching position, or I quit. And we aren’t in a position for me to be able to quit.
So this weekend while I’ve been up until the wee hours of the morning installing a new theme on the blog, I’ve been coming to terms with the fact that sometimes, even when it’s the furthest thing from what we want, we have to make the best of a bad situation. I am under no illusion about how much work this new position will be. I’m not looking forward to all that it will be. There will be a huge learning curve and getting up to speed quickly is going to take a lot of any free time I might have.
Life is about to get complicated, and I need to accept that. Complicated doesn’t necessarily mean bad – it just means complicated. I’m not scared of the amount of work. I am terrified that I won’t be able to do it. It’s that far out of my experience. I know that good teaching is good teaching is good teaching and that doesn’t change regardless of what level. But worrying about it now that it’s done is kinda on the pointless side.
I keep thinking that I asked for this; I need to honor it. So I am.
Really, that’s what the work of my weekend has been about – coming to terms, accepting, preparing…although not in the way that I need to. I need to get all of my grades wrapped up, etc., because I expect that the transition to my new position is going to done quickly. I didn’t do any of that this weekend. I’ll get it done this week.
Speaking of this week, we’re here at the beginning of another month, which means it’s time for Monthly and Weekly Intentions.
It feels a little bit like often, my intentions for the week are the same…and quite often, I don’t accomplish them. With the new position, I’ve got to get exponentially better at managing my time. As always, broken down into categories.
- Hand-off my current classes, clean up my classroom, prep for someone else to take over
- Send thank-you notes to my current staff
- Prep for the new position by reaching out to folks who can help me with what is coming
- Schedule my posts
- Work on solving the Facebook problem
- Continue tweaking the new blog theme
- Practice self-care – walk, meditate, read, take my medications, eat as healthfully as possible
- Get my hair cut (I colored it this evening so that part is set)
- Work on my gift for my Fat Mum Slim Gift Exchange partner
- Create Full Moon Dream board
Because it’s a brand new month, in addition to the weekly intentions, there are monthly intentions that need to be set.
- Update resume and Linked-in
- Create schedule of work/timelines/expectation
- Set boundaries for my work
- Maintain the editorial calendar I’ve set
- Post consistent
- Draft and schedule photo posts on the weekend
- Begin work on the home-made Christmas presents
- Get photo for Christmas card, begin working on Christmas cards
- Finish the bedroom re-do
- Paint the liquor cabinet
- Continue to practice self-care
- Read 2 books
I think that’s about it.
How was your weekend? Outstanding I hope! And what do you have going on in the coming week and month? Let me know in the comments!