It always seems like there is so much that needs to be done, so many things that get put off during the week because we’re too busy working. This weekend was no exception. Cleaning the house, working in the yard, things for work, reviews for a professional journal, photographs to take, transcription, writing, reading. So many things that leave so little time for just really resting.
Now the truth of the matter is that most of those things that needed to be done this weekend still aren’t done. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I’m incredibly tired and I haven’t felt well all weekend. When I say incredibly tired…I mean can barely stay awake Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights. The extreme nausea started Friday night. Slept in much later than I ever do on Saturday and then it was like wash, rinse, repeat for Sunday.
And I suppose that it’s Ok to be a bit of a slugabed for a little while, but now doesn’t feel like that time. So we add guilt to the general don’t feel wells and it makes for a pretty icky stew of emotion.
(as an aside, I am reminded that I need to be better at time management. Which means back to the list I go. My life works better when I’m using my list. Why do I forget about it?)
One of the blogs that I follow recently talked about practicing gratitude during moments of negativity and how the theory is that being grateful allows those icky times to pass more quickly or be more bearable. For her, she said didn’t make her feel better but it was good for her to remember all the good things around her.
During the month of January, I was practicing gratitude with a friend in Illinois and a coworker. I think I want to continue it on my own. Here or other places.
So. The things for which I’m grateful:
- a husband who is patient with me while we are going through this fertility thing.
- sweet doggies who are for the most part well behaved
- living on the Mississippi Gulf Coast. While we had those days (something like 10 of them) of grey cold, the sun has returned and soon it will be here to stay. The weather is good, the seafood is plentiful, and there is so much we can do, so many places we can go. It is a very good thing.
- the ability to pay our bills and still have a little left over.
- not having to pay taxes this year. While we need to adjust things so we have more in our pockets right now and we’re still waiting to get a few more things in so we can file, it looks like we will be able to pay off the work we had done on the truck right before Christmas ($1700) and be able to take a very nice anniversary trip, possibly a cruise, which neither of us have ever done.
- allergy medication. I haven’t been taking it regularly, and I’ve been itching. Terribly. I start taking my allergy meds the way I’m supposed to, and everything is good in my world again.
- the DVR on the television. I didn’t want to stay up and watch ACL last night, but Tim McGraw was on, so it’s got to be a good one. And Live from Darryl’s House. And Writers on PBS. All those programs that I want to watch but don’t have the time to get to (and I get to watch them at night when I’m still awake and the husband is asleep and on the weekends when he hasn’t gotten up yet).
- a family that loves me and wants the best for me.
- a comfortable, if slightly messy, home.
- Ginger ale.
- sausage bread.
- a group of colleagues who want us to be successful and are willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen.
I think that’s probably a good enough list. I have much for which I am thankful. There are a ton of things that are going right in my world. I need to focus on those things when I’m not on top of my game.
What gets you through? How do you fight through the funk? How do you keep yourself on track and on target?