Because there are documented benefits to a regular practice of gratitude, I take time on Tuesdays to express my thanks for all the things kin my life that are amazing and wonderful.
This week, as always, there are so many things.
- Going and Coming Home. Even though it was a very fast trip, getting to see old friends and spend time with my Sner was a true gift. In the space of 96 hours, I got to see my three best friends, two of whom I haven’t seen since Sweet Husband and I got married 16 months ago and one of whom I haven’t seen since I can’t remember…two years now? It wasn’t enough time, but it was better than nothing, and I am thankful.
I am just as thankful, though, to be home. Leaving reminded me that those places that used to be my home are no longer my home. I missed Sweet Husband and the Desserts. Pulling into our driveway around 5:15 Labor day morning was a relief.
- Family. Although I’ve found this incredible family here in South Mississippi, I’ve missed the Sner and the GrandSner. We’re spread across the country, and it’s difficult to make time to get to see them. I was able to spend a little bit more time with the Sner than I originally planned, which was wonderful. I’ll get to see the Sner again at Christmas, and that will be great.
The GrandSner, though. *sigh* I just saw her over Memorial Day, and while she physically looks the same, her mental acuity is nowhere near what it was then. When I walked in Saturday night, she didn’t know who I was. When I came in Sunday afternoon, she still didn’t remember. It was painful for me. And what is particularly painful for me is that at this stage of the game, she knows that she doesn’t remember. I saw her struggling until she eventually got it, and she apologized for not remembering, saying that her mind doesn’t work the way it used to. I don’t know how long it will be before she doesn’t remember at all, but I hope that when I make it home at Thanksgiving, after a brief period of struggle, she’ll remember me and things will be good for a brief period, although given how quickly things have deteriorated, I don’t know if that will be possible at Thanksgiving.
- Enough. While there is some worry about where I am headed and where we will go, how long it is going to take me to find something else, right now, we have enough. There is enough in the cabinet and in the fridge and freezer, not to mention the bank accounts. We won’t live like kings, but we’re going to be OK. We have enough.
- Sweet Husband. As always. Ever.
- Safe travels. It was a long drive. 2500 miles. I flew west to visit with the Sner and friends because Sner gave Sweet Husband and me her 22 year old 1992 Jeep Cherokee. The Jeep, who’s name is Josie, by the way, has been well-maintained, and drove just as well this trip across the country as she did for all the other trips she and I have made together. I’m sure that she would have run even harder but I’m getting older, and my foot isn’t as heavy as it once was. Josie and I made it here just fine, though, and I’d jump in her tomorrow and make that drive again.
- Time. I’m tired. If I’d had to go to work today, I’m not sure how that would have turned out. I recognize the blessing that having this respite is, and while today I’ve been taking time to do laundry and get caught up on the things that I didn’t get done while I was gone, I’ll soon (tomorrow?) pick myself up and brush myself off and get busy getting ready to move forward. Time is a luxury, and I’m glad that Sweet Husband recognizes it.
- Community. While my personal audience is small, I’m connecting with so many women who are creative and supportive and encouraging. Every day I read something that inspires me and encourages me. This world I’ve discovered out there is amazing.
What about you? For what are you grateful this week? In what ways are you counting your blessings this week?