I don’t really have much thought to offer tonight.
I am stressed and frustrated and disheartened this evening.
I can be mean and hateful occasionally. I generally feel bad about it (except for that one time. I still don’t feel bad about that). Today I was shorter than I perhaps needed to be, and I knew why. There’s too much going on, and I had too much to do today. But I also knew exactly how this person likes to twist things and won’t take responsibility for themselves. Today, with everything else, I couldn’t list to it. Not today. I wanted to say…take responsibility for the situation that you’ve helped create and MOVE ON. The jig is up.
I generally want to scream that at people. Life is easier if you take responsibility for your part, resolve to do better, and move on. I understand why that’s difficult for people. It’s incredibly difficult for me to do most of the time. There are times when I’d rather just not deal with it. There are times when I say screw it and eventually coming actually examining my role in the problem. I
For what’s bothering me tonight, I know exactly what my role has been. And I know exactly how I’m going to rectify that situation, starting on Wednesday (not tomorrow because of our visit tomorrow. But on Wednesday, it’s on). I have to be honest with myself and with everyone involved and admit where I haven’t lived up to my end of the bargain. It would be nice if others could be honest about their roles in it as well, but if they can’t? That’s for them to accept…along with the consequences that will result.
Is there somewhere in your life that you could take some responsibility, resolve to do better, and move on?