I am not where I thought I was going to be today, but as the way things normally work, I am where I need to be. I’m in the truck headed north, which was part of the original plan, but I’m not going as far north as I would have liked.
Thee is no trip to Missouri this year another Thanksgiving that won’t be spent with my dwindling family who mean so much to me. Every time I miss making that trip, I wonder how many more of those trips there will be to make. Grandma is frail and aging and heart disease takes more of toll each day.
I trust, though, that there will be more time. There has to be more time.
We’re not going because Pooh and I have been sick…really sick…for the last two weeks. He was smart and went to the doctor way before I did. I only went when my cough started to scare me. & then I had to go back to the doctor because I wasn’t any better.
I may make fun of doctors in the south who are quick to hand out a steroid shot but the truth is that after one, I’m already feeling so much better. Frustrating that it took so long (& was SO expensive!) but I’m thankful for improving health.
Because we’ve been sick we decided that one, we needed to rest, and two, we didn’t need to risk exposing grandma to whatever germs we happen to be carrying.
So instead, we are on our way to Hattiesburg to spend a few days at gumbo acres, eating, watching football, laughing, spending time people we love. As a consolation prize, it’s pretty dang good. To be honest, it’s the exact place we need to be. I laugh about how spoiled Pooh is, but we’ll be taken care of. After almost three weeks of illness and work and stress, it’s what we need.
So I’m thankful for changed plans. I have to remember that life gives us what we need. It often isn’t what we want, and there are many times that it seems contrary to everything we think we need. There is purpose and things happen the way they are supposed to.
I have a ton of work to do this weekend, and I’m thankful for the work. But I need some time just for me. I brought my fashion mags. I’m gonna read them. I didn’t bring my computer because I need to be away from that. Relax. Rest. Recharge. Refresh. Creating a clearing for myself. Beginning the holiday season full of grace and renewal, thankful for all I have, all that is possible, all that will be.