Today is the last official day of the Scintilla Project. I’ve got a few prompts to catch up on, though, so look for a few more Scintilla posts from me. Today’s prompt is
What would it have been like if your life had turned out the way you wanted when you were a kid?
Gosh. This one is a really difficult one to answer. The question is really…which way that I wanted when I was a kid?
I don’t remember exactly the way I envisioned life when I was a little kid. I can’t remember much between the years of five through eight. I do remember about fifth grade I was going to be an astronaut. I was obsessed. I somehow got signed up to be on a mailing list for Space Camp, and I was determined I was going to get to go. I’d mapped out the options for either Huntsville or Texas. I begged and cajoled my parents.
My dad made noises like it was possible, although I think that it was never really a possibility for me to go. The cost was out of reach for us, but I didn’t know that then. Then I was excited. I told everyone I was going. I believed it.
And I believed I was going to be an astronaut. I knew that I had some vision issues so I’d decided that I wasn’t going to be able to get to be an astronaut because I was an Air Force pilot. That didn’t mean, though, that I wasn’t going to join the Air Force and attend the Air Force academy. That just meant that I was going to have to be really good at math and science. And I was OK with that. Even though I didn’t particularly like math or science. what mattered to me was that I was going to be heading into space.
I figured I was going to live in Florida or Texas. Maybe California. And of course, I was going to be married to handsome Air Force man. It was going to take me awhile to make astronaut, so in the meantime, we’d be on top of the word with our meaningful work and our family.
I didn’t have any specific vision of what my life was going to look like. I just knew it was going to be fabulous.
My life is a far sight away from the way I imagined it way back when. The Air Force wasn’t really for me, although after I took the ASVAB, they kept calling and calling and calling. And the math and science bit…while I did wind up minoring in math and taking a boatload of statistics classes mainly because I wanted to prove that I could…didn’t pan out so well for me.
I don’t know when I decided, exactly, that space was not my final frontier. I know that I didn’t have much of a choice about teaching. That chose me. And it’s not been a bad choice.
My life is pretty fabulous, even with all of the unexpected issues that pop up. I have much to be thankful – a husband who loves me beyond words, friends that I love and support me, the family I’ve always wanted, enough time and money to engage in a few frivolous hobbies. This life is more than I dared hope for, and I’m happy with it.
Does you life look the way you thought it would? Is it better than you imagined it would be? or are you disappointed with where you are?