Last December, I participated in project reverb, a reflective writing challenge meant to close out the year and prepare for the new year. One of the groups hosting reverb prompts decided to continue the reflection through the year and sends out a monthly prompt. The prompt for August is as follows:
Transition | Transition of seasons; from single to couple; from couple to parents; from one to many. It’s that time of year when the high summer sun starts to sink and we all start to long for long sleeves. How is your life changing. How are YOU changing?
I suppose that the biggest symbol of transition in my life right now is that I am no longer living on the Coast full-time with my Sweet Husband. At the beginning of August, the new school year started and since my hopes for a job much closer to home did not materialize, SH and I are sliding back into the rhythms of a commuter marriage once again.
I am not happy about it.
I am grateful for a job, don’t get me wrong, and I’m actually enjoying teaching right now because we have yet to dive into the curriculum – 3 weeks into the school year. We are focused on goal setting and our visions for the future, which I think is much more important. We will get to curriculum. Eventually. But right now I’ve got engaged, productive students. So I’m good.
Taking that into account, though, this transition has led me to realize and begin planning for even bigger transitions. Like working for myself transition. While I am constantly looking for a job that will get me closer to home, I’ve been disappointed too many times. I’ve come to the realization that if I’m going to get home and be anywhere near happy, I’m going to have to take matters into my own hands.
It’s frightening. Truly, incredibly frightening. But it is what it is. And I don’t quite know any other way around that. All transitions are frightening. I don’t want to spend much more time away from my home and my family, though. We joke about it being like I’m offshore, but I’m not. and I want to be at home.
There are also other smaller transitions happening: getting healthier (the spider bite on the ass thing has out a damper on that this week in terms of C25K training, managing my time more consistently, writing more, taking steps to improve my photography. All of these smaller transitions are pieces of the much bigger transition, I think. They will ultimately help make that other transition more possible and attainable.
Are you in a season of transition? What kinds of changes are you making as summer fades to fall?