So for those of you who don’t know (because I didn’t), “reverb” is all about taking a look back over the year and reflecting on what has happened, prepping yourself for the coming year. I suppose I’m supposed to be doing this in my writer’s notebook, and that is a good thing. My morning pages are supposed to be handwritten. I can do these prompts there.
At Besottment, Hope Wallace, provides the following prompt for December 1:
December 1 – Did you try anything new in 2012?
Was there anything that you did in 2012 that was a new experience? What was it? What was it like? How did it make you feel? If you did not try anything new – was there a reason? Something holding you back? –
Well, yeah. I tried a few new things in 2012. I started a new job in an industry that was (and to be truthful still is) completely foreign to me. I suppose that teaching is teaching wherever it happens. That piece of it I know and can handle. It’s the rest of it that is a huge pit of quicksand for me. I’ve learned in the last month just exactly what should have been happening, and it is overwhelming to think of how epically I failed in this position.
I am grateful that in the last several months I’ve been provided with the best mentor I could ask for. I believe I can be really successful in this position. The problem is that I didn’t know what the position really is supposed to entail, so for the first half of the year, I spent my time trying to not draw any attention to myself (because I knew my boss at the time was…in the vernacular…bat-shit-crazy and I didn’t want to make myself her target). Now, though, I have someone who supports me and wants me to be successful. Simply because the more successful I am, the more successful she is. She’s willing to dive in and do things–be active in ways that my previous boss was not. Handle things that I have no clue how to handle, prep me for what’s coming up. She knows the business, and she’s willing to do the work. I’m excited for what 2013 will bring us.
I also just happened to get married this year. Which I’ve never done before. I’m not sure that our relationship feels all that different, but being married, tied to someone forever–because it’s supposed to be forever–is new for me. I tend to be a seriously monogamist, and but in the past few years, I’ve kind of had a take-it-or-leave-it attitude. Being on my own for so long has allowed me to take a rather selfish perspective on life. Everything has been about what I want and what I’m doing. Being married means that there’s another person to consider, and that is what is difficult for me. He is sensitive and wonderful in a million ways, which means I need to be more consider of him and what he needs from me. One of my goals for this month is to be better at that.
A slightly different take on reverb12 comes from Meredith’s Daily Angst. Her prompt is:
1. Prompt for December 1st:Where it began: Review and reflect – how did 2012 begin for you? Tell us how the year kicked off; start your renewal by beginning again.
I started 2012 by moving. At the end of the holiday’s, Matt and I were getting the house in Gulfport ready for me to move here and begin my new job. I was preparing to be on my own yet again. I didn’t anticipate that I would have to live on my own again. Moving home was supposed have taken of that – barring any unforeseen circumstances – for the rest of my life. I was nervous and afraid. Starting a new job, in a new place, on my own. Fortunately, it was just on my own during the week and it didn’t’ last long, but there was some angst there. Being 2012, I was nervous and excited and afraid but oddly comforted. I’d done this before. No need to worry about how it going to turn out. The difference, though, was that I wasn’t doing it on my own. I had a whole family supporting me and ready to ride to my rescue the minute I needed them
Tomorrow will be a new day and a new set of prompts to respond to. I’ll do my best to get it done tomorrow.