We are all lightning rods, conduits for that which the Universe wants born into this world. What energies did you channel this year?
It feels like this year has been about uncertainty and frustration – a season of things not going the way I want them to, coming close but not being able to grasp the brass ring. There have been unexpected expenses right when we didn’t need them. Difficulty in relationships. Wounds to myself and those caused by others…some of them terribly deep.
There have been several times this year when I’ve asked myself and others, What the hell is happening here?
I’m not sure exactly what this year has been about; I’m still working that out. I find it hard to believe that the Universe wants me to experience chaos and turmoil. I’m not the only one, though. Several friends have had rough years, and when I look broader at the greater context of the world, there has been a lot of turmoil in the world. Why should I be any different?
I believe that the Universe wants us to have what we need and that everything in the Universe is working to provide us what we need. Like I said, I haven’t figured out this year yet. I’m sure that eventually it will all make sense, but right now, I’m just riding the wave.
And then there is this from Project Reverb:
Do Over: Hindsight is the one thing we never benefit from in the present. Is there one moment you wish that you could do-over?
I try really hard to not engage in regret. I find it pointless. I can’t go back and change things so for me regret doesn’t serve a purpose.Plus, my basic life philosophy posits that everything in our lives happens the way it is supposed to. Every choice we make, every action we take is the action we were meant to take. If we were supposed to do something different, I believe that the Universe would have guided us to that other option. It’s not a lack of freewill – we are free to make any one of a million choices, but once we make the choice by virtue of the fact that we made the choice, it was the choice we were supposed to make.
Sometimes it is a horrible disaster and we realize that we’ve got to make a course correction – to make a different decision. And sometime it is beautifully perfect. Either way – what we were supposed to do in that moment.
So regret? Not something I dwell on.
Are there things that I wish had happened differently this year? Certainly. But regret doesn’t serve me, so I release that.