Today’s prompt from Kat McNally’s Reverb 13 is all about Nourishment. What an incredibly appropriate topic for the holiday season. The prompt today actually comes from Kylie Bellard and she writes,
The way we nourish ourselves determines our ability to shine our light in the world. And nourishment doesn’t just come in the form of food and drink and sunshine; it’s equally important to nourish your spirit. What made your soul feel most nourished this year?
This is really easy for me to answer. I felt my most nourished this year during those summer months – those early mornings where I was getting up and getting in 3-4 mile walks along the beach, moving fairly quickly and feeling like perhaps it was time for me to start thinking about making the decision to run. I was either listening to interesting podcasts from NPR or listening to audio books.When I got home from my walk, I made coffee before heading out to the front porch to write for 45 minutes to an hour.
It was an incredible way to start the day, and it left me feeling strong and grounded. When I was taking that time for myself, I was better able to meet the distractions and difficulties of my day. While I still was under an inordinate amount of stress, I felt like I managed it better than I did when I wasn’t engaged in those self-care practices.
Somewhere along the way, I made the decision that I needed to start running, and I guess I must not have been ready because I absolutely hated getting myself up and out the door. I started skipping walks (or runs as the case may have been) and just when I gave myself permission to not worry with running, I lost my job, which should have given me even more time to work on getting those self-care practices under control, but I made a trip to Nevada (for a good reason!) and then I was engaged full-time in a job search. If I’m being honest, I was also a little on the depressed side too, feeling a bit like a failure and needing to look myself in the face, spending that much time with myself – both the writing and the walking – all seemed like a bit too much.
This new job doesn’t not afford me the opportunity to get up and spend an hour walking (plus the view isn’t as nice) and then an hour writing. I don’t have the luxury of going to work by 9. I just can’t get up at 3:00, which is when I would need to get up in order to make those self-care practices work. And even though I technically get off at 3:00, I haven’t quite figured out how to make it work in the afternoons, either. One of my intentions for this month is to get that sorted. I am better – both for myself and for those around me – when I take that time for myself, and the long and short of the issue is that in order to achieve my goals, I’ve got to get better at taking care of myself. I have to make my health a priority.
In addition to all of the other things on the plate for this month, that has to be added as well. I think I’m up to it. At least on this side of it, I feel like I’m up to it. I suppose that we shall see, won’t we?
I wasn’t going to write about Project Reverb’s prompt today, but then I saw it and I couldn’t help myself.
Shine: What was the best moment of 2013
There have been a lot of really incredible moments throughout this year. So many afternoons and evenings spent with friends and family, so many laughs. I have an entire box (that I need to update *sigh*) full of precious moments that make up the whole of 2013. But the best moment? The one that makes me smile and I bring up again and again when I need a little pick-me-up or when I want to remember what all of this mess that my life is about, happens to be our first anniversary.
We got married in April because that was the only month with no big birthdays, no big parties, and most importantly, no football (critical when marrying a Southern man). April is slightly chilly for the beach, but we got a good deal on a room at Sandestin and said screw the costs – it’s our anniversary. We didn’t have a honeymoon – a weekend away was important. Sweet Husband has adopted the mantra, “Whatever my baby wants, my baby gets,” and I try very hard not to take advantage of that. We’d budgeted for our anniversary trip with our tax return, and we went to have an outstanding time.
When Sweet Husband heard that the first anniversary is the paper anniversary, he searched for an appropriate gift. I have to confess that I actually didn’t get around to getting him a gift. I had the best of intentions…but that job. *sigh* Occupied my time and my mind and made it impossible for me to juggle everything. And he was OK with it. He was even OK with the calls from my best friend in the middle of the night while we were supposed to be on vacation because she was stuck in Egypt and needed help finding her neighbor, who just happened to be her travel agent.
But he outdid himself.
He got us tickets (paper) for a harbor cruise on our anniversary. Lovely dinner and dancing and drinks. And a DJ to play our first dance song. And there, dancing with him, knowing how much effort he’d made and how much thought he’d given it when I could barely function due to all of the stress in my life – I melted. A puddle. He certainly is the very right one for me. (we won’t talk about how in fact I was later a puddle. Hint – don’t wear those stilettos on a pier. They get caught in the planks and you go down like a stack of cards. That bruise on my knee lasted for months)
Safe, secure, and loved. Absolute best moment of 2013. So far.