Today’s #reverb13 prompts are about inspiration and surprises.
Kat McNally gives us
Who inspired you in 2013? And why?
What gifts did they give you? And how will you carry these forward in to 2014?
and Project Reverb offers
Surprise: What surprised you the most this year?
I think it’s probably easier to tackle the surprises. Hands down what has surprised me most was my reaction to being fired. I’ve couched in kinder and gentler terms – I was let go, I lost my job, we decided to move in different directions. But the truth is that I got fired. I’ve never been fired before. In over 2 decades of work, I’d never been fired. I’ve prided myself on being an exemplary employee. So to have the shock of being fired on top of the anger – the sense of relief, the being able to walk away with my dignity, being able to respond to those who were so ugly – all of that was a bit of a surprise to me.
It’s also been a surprise how easily I’ve eased back into teaching. I suppose that it really is like riding a bike (let’s hope I’m still saying that tomorrow when I’m being observed for my formative evaluation).
Inspiration gets a little trickier to talk about because truly there have been so very many. If we look at the very personal, there is my best friend. We both struggled in stressful jobs that made us deeply unhappy, but she very patiently listened to me every single step of the way. Let me whine. Let me cry. Let me bitch about how awful it was. All while going through her own personal hell. And she remained professional and proud during the whole ordeal. Plus there’s the whole thing about here that she always wanted to be a ballerina but because her mom was poor and then had cancer to boot, there wasn’t money for ballet. In her mid-30s she decided that it was time to start taking dance lessons. I got to see her perform while I was driving home from NV, and she was amazing.
My Sner. She has struggled with her health the last several years, battling with a large international shipping company after being injured on the job. Her life will never be the same. She has remained positive and upbeat, confident, during very, very trying circumstances.
Sweet Husband. He works with incredibly difficult kids every day. And he loves them. He is patient and kind and wants them do well. He gives his best, and he reminds me of what is possible with students when you give them a chance.
As we range a little further out, there are plenty of bloggers who inspire me – ones that are in my bloglovin’ feed so I don’t miss them – Jill Salahub, Kat McNally, Coffee with Hallelujah, Chantelle Ellem, Quinn McDonald, Andrea Scher, Susannah Conway, Jamie Ridler. All of these women are following their passions and reminding me that it’s possible for me to get there as well. They are vulnerable and honest in their struggles and willing to expose their journeys. One of these days, I want to grow up to be like them.
I’m planning to carry that inspiration into 2014 by moving myself closer to where I want to be, following my own passions a little more closely. Creating a place here online that reflects who I am and where I’m headed, the things that are important to me. It’s almost time for me to begin thinking about my Mondo Beyondo list for 2014 and to start thinking about my intentions. They are brewing there in my soul. There are a few things that are starting to come to the surface – many of them thanks to the examples that so many wonderful women are setting for me.