I am still not too far into The Desire Map, but the parts I have read came in handy today.
This was a horrible day, and I knew it was going to be a horrible day. I set that in motion even before it began and that is my fault. I knew it was going to be a difficult day, but difficult doesn’t have to equal horrible. I made it that way.
This is where The Desire Map comes in. Danielle Laporte talks about how just because you are manifesting who you want to feel and you’re putting those positive intentions out into the world, it doesn’t mean that you won’t still have bad things happen. Those are things we can’t control. But we can choose how we want to feel when those bad things are happening. We can stay in that loop despair or we can remember the ways that we want to feel and work to feel that.
I don’t know that I made a conscious decision today that I would remain calm and centered (which was difficult because I didn’t run or write this morning). But that’s what happened. And even though it was a shitty day, other than this moment of using it to think about remembering what my core desires are and how I want to feel. Once I know how I want to feel, things get easier…no matter how tough the situation is.
So I take that from today.
…and I am again, uncomfortably reminded of something else from Danielle. Like a punch to the gut. She says something along the lines of…if courageous is how you want to feel, then you have to do things that require courage. Oof. There is something I know I need to do. I’ve needed to do it for a long time. And for me, it’s a courageous conversation. I don’t know how to have it. I don’t know what to say without it coming across painfully. And to be honest, I am terrified of having this conversation.
But I want to feel courageous. Brave. Confident. Which means that I need to do courageous, brave, confident things. Because that’s how you feel brave, confident. courageous.
…and I haven’t been doing that. So that has to change.
What about you? How do you want to feel? And how are you going about making that feeling happen?