Today is the seventh day of Kat McNally’s August Moon. I have participated in her Reverb projects in December as well as her April Moon offerings, so it was a no brainer for me sign up for August Moon again this year. it comes at just the right time for me, I believe. There is a lot swirling around in my head and heart these days, and I’m looking forward to using the opportunity that August Moon gives me to work through those things that are rattling around inside of me.
Today, Kat gives us the following:
What tends to trip you up?
What is your kryptonite? Ask yourself in the most compassionate of ways.
Do you have lots of great ideas but have trouble choosing which one to focus on? Do you do so much research that you get overwhelmed when it comes to making a decision? Do you love generating ideas but aren’t so excited about seeing them through to the micro details?
If you’re anything like me, maybe you are easily discouraged. Perhaps you question your authority to write or say or make certain things. Or you might find yourself comparing your offerings negatively to the appearance of other people’s (especially in your instagram feed!).
What if these things were not detractions or blocks, just neutral facts about your preferred approach? What if it were just a matter of finding resources or people whose skills and interests complemented yours, so that the things you have listed would no longer hold you back?
Who might be able to work with you to help you work this to your advantage?
I think my biggest threat to success, the thing that keeps me from moving forward, is not having enough faith in my ability to do it.
When you look at my life – the projects I have started and not completed, the things in working on but haven’t put all of my effort into – it could look like there is a bit of flightiness or too many choices or not enough follow-through. And there might be a little something to that bit the bigger issue is that I am not all together sure that I can do it.
Because I lack that faith in myself, I sabotage those efforts. I don’t give myself enough time to write or take photos or whatever. When I then don’t experience success, I can blame it on the fact that I didn’t have time or I didn’t really try rather than I might not have been good enough.
At some point, though, this self-sabotage gets old. I’m rapidly getting to the point where I am tired of failure or rather what feels like failure. I am tired of looking around and thinking, “That could be me” or “I can do that.”
When I started my doctoral program, the professor teaching our research intro class asked us to look around at our classmates – by the time we were done, only half of us would be left and the half of us left would only be there because we put in the work. Not because we were smarter. And he said, “Look at all the people out there with PhDs. There are a lot of idiots who completed a doctoral program. You’re smarter than most of them. The difference is that they’ve done the work. Do the work.”
I also hear my Sweet Husband’s voice saying, “Baby, if you want to write, then write. Give it your all and do it. We’ll figure out how to make it work.”
I’ve got a ton of people who believe in me, and as I start to see 40 creeping over the hill, I am realizing that the only way through this, the only way to get to where I want to be is to believe in me too.