Today is the second day of Kat McNally’s August Moon. I have participated in her Reverb projects in December as well as her April Moon offerings, so it was a no brainer for me sign up for August Moon again this year. it comes at just the right time for me, I believe. There is a lot swirling around in my head and heart these days, and I’m looking forward to using the opportunity that August Moon gives me to work through those things that are rattling around inside of me.
Today’s prompt from Kat McNally is as follows:
What is it that you do now?
Today, we’re going to look at where we are, exactly as we are, right now. Grab a pen and a piece of paper; sit down in front of a screen with a keyboard; or dictate into one of those fancy smart phone apps!
Tell us what fills your weeks, days and hours.
Gosh. I think Kat must be living inside my brain because Sunday when I was struggling so mightily to get my morning pages done and trying to make sense of everything that I was feeling, one of the things that I actually wrote about was the way I spend my time, and how that needs to change if I’m going to make changes. I don’t know how many of you use your phones to keep track of your lives, but I’m a bit of a tech junkie when it comes to that. I have Awesome Note on my phone to help keep my various to-do lists organized with things prioritized and deadlines all a part of the deal. There are different folders for things that need to be done today, things that need to be done this week, this month, this quarter. Other folders with things for my blog. Another folder that is all about my health. All with the ability to check things off and feel satisfied that I’ve accomplished something.
I read an article several months ago, though, that said perhaps our to-do lists create more stress for us and really what we might want to do is keep track of the things we accomplish. And with that thought in mind, I recently re-discovered my I Done This app. Now, I’m sure that there are all sorts of things that the app can do that I don’t use it for. I simply use it to keep track of what I’ve gotten done. A reminder of sorts, so I don’t make it to the end of a week, and go…”What the heck happened here?”
When I look back over my days, they look like this (& just so you know, I’m only talking about Monday – Friday here):
- 3:45 – 5:15 – Making coffee, catching up on email, checking in, drinking coffee, closing out the day before in my Some Lines Journal, getting my morning pages done, making lunch.
- 5:15 – 6:00 – Showering, dressing, applying spackle and paint, getting out the door…theoretically having breakfast in there. (On the weekends that happens with morning pages, but 4:00 in the morning is just too early for me to put anything in my stomach)
- 6:00 – 6:30 – Driving to work.
- 6:30 – 7:05 – Prepping for children.
- 7:05 – 8:00 – Waiting for children.
- 8:00 – 1:40 – Teaching
- 1:40 – 2:30 – Planning period, which theoretically should be spent grading papers, writing lesson plans, straightening up the room, preparing for the next day, but in practice is spent eating the lunch I didn’t have time to when the children were eating or just sitting down and letting the difficulties of the day wash away.
- 2:30 – 3:00 – Classroom clean-up, conferencing with colleagues, making copies for the next day.
- 3:00 – 4:00 – Running errands or heading home.
- 4:00 – 5:30 – Usually a nap or talking with Granny or attending to some issue that has come up, but this time is earmarked for napping.
- 5:30 – 9:00 – Dinner, talking with Sweet Husband’s mom, watching television, sitting on the back porch, writing, playing on facebook, reading blogs, reading articles, looking for resources.
- 9:00 – 11:30 – Getting ready for bed. Winding down. Meditating. Creating the next day’s to-do list, which involves moving things from one list to another, looking at the calendar, trying to figure out what comes next.
- 11:30 – 3:45 – Sleep. Hopefully.
As I look at that schedule and list of things that I do each day, I see a lot of time that gets wasted. That’s a lot of time that needs to be put to use if I’m going to make the change I feel like the Universe is telling me I need to start working on. I’m going to have to get much more efficient at doing what needs to be done when I have those moments of time (like now – my student removed himself from class, so instead of writing this, I should probably be working on getting the work that students did last week entered into my gradebook, which in all honesty, I started doing last week. I responded to journals and put those grades into the book but I didn’t do Friday’s or the new students).
I actually have *plenty* of time. I’m choosing to waste it.
Because it is easier to fall into a rut and do nothing than it is actually take the steps to walk out and meet the future.
Now, tonight I won’t be making my way home to take a nap. Tonight we have Open House, which means I am required to be at work until 5:00. I’ll use that time to get those grades done and to respond to journal entries, perhaps even grade some assessments if students are finished. That just means that when I get home, I’m going to be even more exhausted than usual. And when I get home, I’ll change my clothes and call Sweet Husband to remind me that we are supposed to be walking every evening. If he goes, great. If not, I’ll be headed out on my own. When I get back, it will be time for some dinner, and some other work that needs to be done. Maybe even time to shift the shower to the evening so I can sleep just a wee bit longer in the morning. Tomorrow’s schedule will be more structured and contained than even today’s. Because that’s what I’m going to have to do if I want to make these changes.
What do your days look like? Let me know in the comments or join us on this #AugustMoon14 challenge!
*and just a note – I’ve been a chronic insomniac since I can remember. Often that nap that I take in the afternoon, only works out to be about 30-40 minutes because it takes me that long to fall asleep. If I don’t get to sleep right when I feel it, then I’ve lost the moment and it’s not going to happen for me. And I’ve learned that while an earlier bedtime might be great, if I lay down before I’m tired, I don’t fall asleep and then I associate my bed with not being able to sleep. I’ve been told that skipping that nap might help me sleep earlier in the evenings, but it hasn’t worked out that way for me. If I miss my window of sleeportunity, then I don’t get to sleep. (on a different note – do any of you smell sleep? I know when I smell sleep, I need to lay down within like 5 minutes. If I don’t, I’m not going to sleep) All of these issues are hold-overs from a chronic nightmare that I had off and on from the time I was about 5 until the time I was about 25. The nightmare is gone, but the pattern of sleeplessness remains.